Night says hello, before the sun could say goodbye. Stealing the limelight, and pushing this golden beauty out of the sky. Gold turns to orange. And orange fades to black. How selfish could one be? To cast out all other light, to shine alone. Hours upon hours pass. Until the moon gets its just deserved. And black fades to blue. And white to gold. Welcome back sun. Did you rest well? This neverending cycle, where unjustice is done. This neverending cycle, to eliminate the sun. But not so fast. Who’s the real victim here? It’s me. I only get time, when you are all asleep. The sun, oh yea he gets your full attention. But me, I’m unwanted. And never even mentioned.
Honestly. I honestly just want to go to sleep, because my dreams seem better than my reality. And that very thought alone is what scares me. The most. Honestly.
I um…I’ve been dizzy. I’ve been dizzy all day. And all I need is to rest my eyes. I need to sleep off these unfufilled priorities. But, dont worry about me. Cause I’ll get up at two. I just need to sleep and time no longer being a factor. Makes this possible. I’m gonna go now. But, promise me one thing while I’m gone. You won’t worry, cause I’ll get up at two.
I’m in the library right now. And my computer lies exposed to everyone as I type this. At this very second someone behind me could be reading this post word for word. And it doesn’t bother me one bit. This is the one place where silent secrets are passed and shared without realization that it even happened. I’m in the library right now. And at this very second someone could be reading this post word for word. And that doesnt bother me one bit.
It’s one o’clock in the morning. And instead of embedding economics into my brain. Where it doesn’t want to be might I add. I sit here and tumbl about it. I’ve been here since three yesterday afternoon. My test is one this afternoon. And still I feel like I may know less than when I even started. But, that’s okay as long as the information lost has nothing to do with economics. I hate the subject, despise it even. But, no matter how I feel about it I must be with it. Its pointless, but I know I’m gonna be thankful in the long run, maybe. UGH….I’m so frustrated in knowing that I will be sitting here for hours to come and its all because of economics….I guess I should get back to work. I would love to stay and chat, but when economic calls it screams and nobody wants to sit through that.
You ever been lost with directions? No not in the literal sense of going somewhere and becoming lost. In the emotional or better yet mental sense. Lost with Direction. You know exactly where you want to go, and exactly how to get there. But, yet you’re lost. Lost with Direction. There are all these “pit stops” along the way to distract you and let’s all be honest we all wanna stop and see the “sights”. But how do you come back from being..? Lost with Direction. I mean I guess you can’t come back because you were never gone in the first place. But, it sure as hell feels like it. Feels like I’m lost with Direction.
So I guess I havent posted on tumblr in a while, or should I say don’t post on tumblr very often. I really try not to post miscellaneous things that don’t relate to me directly. But, on the internet that’s hard to do when hundreds of things are being constantly shoved in your face. Maybe that’s why I only tweet like once a week. But that doesn’t mean I’m not on twitter. Nothing just relates. *shrugs* Instead of thinking of it as an absence we’ll call it a time lapse. Thats what it feels like anyways, I’ll blink and a week will go by. Guess I’m just trying shed some light into my life. Welcome to my time lapse.